Exactly what I'm feeling.

“People think they know you. They think they know how you’re handling a situation. But the truth is no one knows. No one knows what happens after you leave them, when you’re lying in bed or sitting over your breakfast alone and all you want to do is cry or scream. They don’t know what’s going on inside your head—the mind-numbing cocktail of anger and sadness and guilt. This isn’t their fault. They just don’t know. And so they pretend and they say you’re doing great when you’re really not. And this makes everyone feel better. Everybody but you.”

—	William H. Woodwell Jr.

Dream dream dream

Have you ever had a dream where you are losing your teeth or your teeth are falling? Well, I did a couple of days ago, when I was enjoying my afternoon nap. I woke up after that nap completely normal then it dawned on me when I was finally in front of my laptop and realized that I dreamt of something very BAD. You see, in the Philippines, we have this "pamahiins" or "myths" and according to some "pamahiins", if you dream of falling teeth or losing teeth, this simply means "death in the family" or a "bad omen". Imagine the fear and worry I experienced the whole day. Trust me, that dream almost shattered me into pieces. I didn't even have the courage to talk about it but I told my husband, just my husband, then told TWITTER about it, well, I told TWITTER that I had a bad dream. :)) Anyway, the next day, I finally had the courage to talk about the dream I had only because I was BBM-ing with my best friend and her sister had the same dream the night before. That's when I blurted out about my dream. I have this habit of concealing things that are not good. (Is that pride? Hahaha) Then while I was bbm-ing with my best friend talking about how worried and scared we were, I heard the bad news. I won't post it here cos it's too personal. However, I am quite relieved that the days of worry have subsided. It's not easy sleeping with a worried brain and heart.

Here's what I read online re: Dreams of teeth, particularly falling teeth/losing teeth:

Another theory holds that teeth in dreams represent power, since they are used in real life to tear, chew, and bite. Therefore, the loss of teeth in a dream represents a perceived loss of power or influence. People who feel frustrated, or who feel that their voices are not being heard, may have dreams about losing teeth. Feeling ineffective, or feelings of inferiority, are often associated with such dreams as well.
-http://dreaminterpretation8.blogspot.com/2007/12/dreams-of-teeth.html

This interpretation is the most adequate for me. There are many theories, you know. I hate failure and rejection. In fact, I can't stand both. I hardly accept failure and rejection and I usually get mad or I disconnect myself from the world when it happens. I know this is not a good attitude but hey, we all have different personalities. ;) Depression clicks inside me, being my companion for a couple of days or weeks. Yes, both create such a huge impact in my life and it's so ironic cos I'm a writer. Hahahaha. :))

CONSPIRACY

May 02, 2011 - The mastermind behind 9/11 is said to be dead. Killed by an asset, shot through the head or died because of the explosion? Really, can you please get your facts straight? It was around 11am here when the news about Osama's death broke. I saw it on Twitter and quickly turned on the TV and of course tuned in to CNN. Even during the wee hours of the morning I was watching CNN with my husband. Just like any other people in the world, we were dying to see proof that Osama is really dead. America is taking too long to show the whole world Osama's body and it is said that the body is covered in white sheet and buried at sea. They said that it is an Islamic tradition but apparently, IT IS NOT and now, JUST NOW, I retweeted a statement from Inquirerdotnet saying that "Burial at sea is routine for US Navy". Yeah, right.

The real question here is, is Osama really dead or is America covering up something. If he's dead, it doesn't change anything. According to CNN last night, Obama said "THE WORLD IS A SAFER PLACE". This is so stupid coming from the President of the most powerful country in the world. Osama Bin Laden is a smart ass, and it took 10 years before he got killed, and he has HALF A MILLION followers already and this man will not die with nothing. HE HAS PLANS OF COURSE, in fact, there may be a new leader now, plotting. Seriously, the war isn't over. I think it's just starting. And before you rejoice, the death of a man who killed millions of people is not worth it, for me, he deserves to suffer and not DIE. Death is nothing, death is even WONDERFUL because he never get to suffer again, he doesn't need to hide anymore.

Honestly, America, PLEASE MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS. We know you're powerful and yes, we look up to you, but please, STOP OCCUPYING PLACES THAT ARE NOT YOURS. You started this war against them. What more do you want? And would you please STOP LYING. If Osama is really dead, why is it taking so long to show the whole world, HIS BODY. We deserve it. Or I guess... maybe you're covering up a mistake... maybe it's Osama's decoy. He's a very smart guy after all. Whatever it is, THE WORLD IS DEFINITELY NOT SAFER and Osama's death is not a big deal (I'm sorry) because he will not die (if he really is) without any plans of terrorism. THE PLANS ARE ALL SET, WAITING TO BE PUT INTO ACTION. A man like Osama will not die without "plans" because from the very start, he knows he'll die or get killed. That is the truth. Now, WE DESERVE TO KNOW THE WHOLE TRUTH as well.

So where are King Henry VIII's descendants?

Finally I had an answer. I remembered that Elizabeth I (the daughter of King Henry VIII and Anne Boleyn) died with no kids. However, the Queen of England, Elizabeth II is still related to Elizabeth I as they are first cousins that have been 14 times removed. So, yeah, they are still related. :)) What's with all the fuss? Well, eventhough King Henry VIII was such a huge arse back in the days but still,  he made "history" and he's the most "controversial" king indeed. He killed all his wives (!!!) and he's the first ever King who got DIVORCED. Stupid? Yeah. But his story and the years that he reigned as King of England is very interesting and fascinating. Maybe not all of you will not get this "obsession" I have with England's history but you might want to open a book or two about it and you will know what I'm saying... :)

The Royal Wedding

I am still euphoric because of the Royal Wedding. I love anything that has to do with England and I am very fascinated with their history. I have read a couple of books and I'm planning to buy more. England is my dream and someday I will live there and take pictures and go inside their castles. Here are some pictures of the Royal Wedding that I reblogged from Tumblr. ENJOY! :)

                                         The very hot couple :) Check out how chic Victoria is!

                                                                  I just loveeeee them.

                                        Of course, Mr. Bean (Rowan Atkinson) My son's favorite. :)

                                                           Awww. So adorable!

                                                              So cuuuuttttteeee!

                                                          England's very hooot Princes!

                                         There goes the bride, in her very awesome "motor coach".

                                             Everyone's excited about the gown of course!

                                              Confirmed: Alexander Mcqueen made her dress

                                                                 Simple yet elegant.

                                                             She's really very happy. :)

                                                 Philippa/Pippa in her beautiful dress as well.

                                               Kate escorted by her father Michael and Pippa

                                                Harry mouths: "Wait till you see her"

                                                         Yes, one ring and for Kate only.

                                                               The Welsh gold band :)

                                                     The Duke and Duchess of Cambridge

  The horse-drawn carriage wherein the horses are TROTTING. YES! Awesome, right?

                                                             She looks very happy :)

                                                                   This is just perfect <3

                                                              Official wedding photos :)

                                                     The Duchess changed into a new gown

So, there! :) Hope you enjoyed all these photos. I have gotten all these from Tumblr. :) Will post another one, will just have breakfast :)


                                 

Hypocrisy at its finest

My blog has been neglected the past few days. I have been really busy with work and I can't find the time to blog - until now. Well, anyway, here I am.

I wanted to share my thoughts about HOLY WEEK. Since it's Holy Week, I find myself thinking why there are a lot of people that goes through ABSTINENCE and even those we see on TV like, people mimicking Christ's suffering then  celebrities getting interviewed regarding their vacation plans this Holy Week. Should I say hypocrisy at its finest? Seriously. It's just sometimes very irritating to see these celebrities tweeting about abstinence and repentance but during Holy Week they are off on a far away place, having the time of their lives. HAH. Really twisted.

PixTrix

I am into lomo-ish pictures these days and I recently bought a lomo cam. Also, I have instagram installed in my iTouch and iPad as well. However, I was so surprised that Blackberry also has an app that is very similar with the app I currently have installed in my Apple devices "ala instagram". Luckily, I stumbled upon my best friend's recent uploads via her BB and asked her if there was something wrong with her camera. Yun pala she's using the app and I quickly downloaded if from BB app world (of course)! Here are the sample pictures:

                                                My adorable baby boy, Lucas :)

                                                             And of course, US <3

See, pretty nice huh? So, for those who have BB phones there, go download the app :) You will definitely enjoy it! :)

P.S

Will blog more, I just need to finish some more articles. ;)

New meat

It's Friday and I should be celebrating by now. I can't because I am loaded with work. There are a lot of articles that I need to pass over the weekend so I can get my normal work schedule back. I slacked off for weeks cos a lot came up and here I am, cramming. I hate this. I am a "planning" person and I hate getting my plans screwed by things that don't make sense at all. Anyway, it's all in the past now and I am happy cos I love my job and I get really good pay :)

Every single day I follow a routine, and maybe that's just the way I am. I' m still in the process of learning new things about myself and I'm enjoying every moment. However, I know I won't be able to describe myself in one word even when I'm 6 feet under.

But I enjoy a lot of simple things, I'm a sucker for old movies. I don't know but I just love watching them especially the "black and white" ones. It's just soooo relaxing.

I love everything that has to do with Europe and their history. I have gotten quite a few books about it and my favorite is all about King Henry VIII and of course, the famous mistress, Anne Boleyn :)

The streets of London... 

And of course watching my favorite TV shows which I find very relaxing:

• National Geographic
• Animal Planet
• Discovery channel

Well, I think that's enough for my first post because I need to write my articles already.  :)) I will share a lot more! :)